Circular Reasoning

I have come a long way in my ability to receive feedback. I am now mature enough to cry about it at a later time…by myself…in the privacy of my own home. After my first year in this new role, I figured a 360 review might be a good idea. In the days leading up to receiving my results, I found myself preparing rationales for all the unfair comments, misplaced frustration, and unrealistic expectations I expected to receive from this anonymous tool. What I got was far worse. It was the truth. It was accurate, balanced, and completely on point with things I know are real opportunities. The problem is, now not only do I know them, but so do all these people who just pointed them out to me.　 Celebrating the Feast of Corpus Christi, I thought about how little I invite the Lord into that feedback loop – especially through Adoration. Is it because of all my rationalizations, or, like my review, is it because I’m not prepared for the results? Do I simply want to hear the feedback that will keep me in the same comfortable cycle, or am I open to truly "letting myself be transformed?" If I’m not, maybe I don’t need a 360, but a 180.